Weekend without Matt

I spent this weekend without Matt due to him being on an exercise for Afghanistan. It was awful, i had no idea how much i've settled in to weekend habits with him..breaking them didn't feel good.  Friday night i went round to see Alana, it was nice, good catch up over a bottle of wine, but my heart wasn't in it, i felt id rather be at home alone able to miss matt in private.
Saturday, Hannah couldn't make Glasgow green so i was utterly miserable in the house, i was in so much pain with my Lupus, i had a lump in my throat all night, all i wanted was to be laying on matts chest with his arms round me, its amazing how something so simple as a cuddle can help everything. I can't wait till we live together in September..the thought of being his fiancee and seeing him every single day is to good to be true.
This weekend we have a long weekend together and we are having a belated bonfire night, got the sparklers all ready :) i just want to spend the whole 4days in bed cosied up.